How is everyone today? I just came back from a jog and even though it wasn’t the best run I’ve done I’m still pretty proud of myself because I had only just fell asleep before my alarm rang and I so did not want to get out of bed. The funny thing is what got me out of bed was actually the Facebook game ‘Trainstation’. I sent my trains to come back at around 5am – 6am and if I didn’t get up to send them off, they’ll be sitting idle for another six or so hours!
I think it’s interesting that a whole lot of things I’m being exposed to when I’m surfing on the Internet are about dying, and what it means to be alive.
What do you guys think it means to be alive? There are so much struggles we go through each and every day of our lives, and a lot of the time we tend to ignore the abundance of good present in it and in ourselves.
I think I spent a good amount of my life being afraid of death. It’s scary. It’s an unknown. What happens after our physical body dies? Where does my soul go? Have I done enough good in the world to let me go to heaven? What will I regret the most when I die?
And then I read a quote that said:
“Life was such and adventure, I’m sure death will be an even bigger one.”
It was then that death suddenly didn’t become so scary anymore. It’s not as though I want to quicken the process, though I do have some bad habits that are doing so, but we will come to that later. I have just accepted that it will inadvertently happen one day, and I just have to do my best to live to the best of my ability.
Now I’m not saying I do that very well, I’m getting there.
Like I said earlier, there are some habits that are killing me, slowly, such as my non-exercising tendencies. Which is why I’m changing that now. A habit begins by taking action over and over again over a set period of time, and so I’ve started jogging in the mornings, every Wednesday and Friday, and will increase it to more times a week once I’m able to comfortably run a few kilometers. I’ve always failed in the past because I didn’t cultivate it long enough to become a habit, but I’m definitely going to succeed this time round. With a little help and encouragement from you guys of course! And I’ve enrolled Nathan to bully me out of bed in the mornings.
Are we simply wasting out lives away?
Do you find that you create a lot of drama and struggle in your life? I know I did. I used to victimize myself all the time. “Oh they didn’t do that”, “It’s not any of my business”, “You just don’t understand me”, and “I don’t feel appreciated enough”. I knew the theory that people can’t control your emotions for you, only you can do that, but I never practiced it. I’ve heard it many times, from many sources. And then I read this quote:
“What do you want to be? Happy? Confident? Strong? Brilliant? The truth is, you can make yourself anything and have a lot of fun doing it. But it’s up to you to make it happen. You’re in charge. You are entirely up to you. Make your body. Make your life.”
It’s a beautiful quote, isn’t it? I like being happy. So I choose to be happy. Sure, I’ll slip up here and there and be angry and sad, I’m only human. But for the most part, I choose to be happy. I’m lucky, I have food on the table, a bed to sleep in, a computer to use, I can buy the things I want. I don’t have to run for my life, or starve. So I have a lot going for me. Why should I be anything other than happy?
So what is the point to life? I don’t know. I don’t know if I’ll know when I get to the end of it, but I’ll just make the best of it in the small ways I know how. It is a privilege to be alive, and I’ll cherish that.